#KWENTONGFEBIBIG
(here I go again, overthinking @ 11:24pm, 2/2/16)
Come
to think of it, everyone has that stage in life wherein we all like someone.
May it be an average joe or someone popular (an artist or maybe that popular
guy/girl in your school, same shiz). But what does liking someone really mean?
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I
remember one time when I just got negative/foul news from a friend, telling me
that my crush already knows that I like her/him (I won’t tell if it’s a her or
a him XHDIAJC gets niyo na ‘yun). I
got really annoyed for some reason before knowing that I’m already hurting
unconsciously. When I got home, I went straight to my room and read the Bible.
I came across John 14:1 and it says:
“Do not let your hearts be troubled.
You believe in God, also believe in Me.”
To
make the long story short, after a couple of minutes, I heard my mom downstairs
telling my brother not to go up the staircase, then next thing I heard was a
thud, so I went out of my room to check what happened. When I got out, I saw my
baby brother on the floor with a bruise on his knee.
Acting
like nothing happened; he got up and went to me saying, “Ate, I have a bruise on my knee.”
You can actually see it in his eyes that he is about to cry but he’s
trying to hold it all in and still manages to smile. Going back, I called his
yaya to take him to the other room and treat his bruise while I go back to
reading. As I was just about to enter my room, something hit me and I realized
something.
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We,
yes “we”, are all like my brother. We all have those friends who would tell us
not to fall for some guy, right? But of course, we wouldn’t bug to listen,
because we want to fill our hearts with maybe a short-term happiness, or even
overflow our memory with wonderful ones, but later on will be turned to
sadness, or loneliness. Bitterness. Sorrow. Despair. Gloom. Hurt. Grief.
Desolation. Despondency. I could go on and on with this. One thing’s for sure,
we’re all looking for that temporary satisfaction that could even make us feel
the opposite of what we want to feel.
Another
thing that I realized is that whenever we tend to fall, we pretend that we’re
okay. We don’t want other people to acknowledge our weakness that, for us,
seems to be our strength. Why can’t we just show our true feelings? Why can’t
we show people that we have the capability to be fragile also? Are we really
that scared to be seen by people that we’re weak and hurting?
It’s
almost Vday (or maybe today is Vday), Feb 14, Sunday. Most of us, of course, don’t
want that bitter and cringy feeling whenever we see couples around us. I don’t
want to sound all cheesy and corny here
but here’s one thing, someone will be looking at you like you’re the only star
in the universe, like you’re the only girl/boy in his/her world, maybe not now,
but in the future (if it’s God’s will).
Looking
for the right one in the right time and place? He’s been there all the time.
He’s just waiting for you to seek for Him. Minahal
ka na niya simula pa noong ‘di mo pa siya kilala, simula pa noong ‘di mo pa
siya mahal. Sinasabi mo sa sarili mo na marami
ka nang palpak at kalokohang nagawa kaya kailangan mo ng tagapagligtas,
kailangan mo ng pag-ibig, kailangan mo ng iibigin. Gagawa ka’yo ng mga bagay na
‘di lang sa kanya, ‘di lang sa’yo, kundi para sa “inyo”. (Paul De Vera, 2016) Pero
naisip mo ba kung sino ang puwedeng umangkin lahat ng sakit na dinanas mo,
lahat ng paghihirap na dinaanan mo? Kung sinong kakayanin lahat para lang ‘di
mo maranasan ang hirap na tinahak Niya? Tingin ka sa langit. Siya lang ang
nakakagawa noon, para sa kapakanan mo.
Tandaan mo, mas magiging masaya ka
sa tamang pag-ibig sa tamang panahon, at Siya ang magbibigay sa’yo n’un para
‘di mo na madaanan ang mga sakit dala ng makamundong pag-ibig, dahil Siya ang
totoong Pag-ibig.
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